Neden hep ayn\u0131 g\u00fcne, ayn\u0131 ana, ayn\u0131 hik\u00e2yeye tak\u0131l\u0131 kald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hat\u0131rlam\u0131yor olabilirsin\u2026
\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcnde duran \u015fey yaln\u0131zca bir an\u0131 de\u011fil, tamamlanmay\u0131 bekleyen bir hik\u00e2yedir.
Peki d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm hik\u00e2yesi dedi\u011fimiz \u015fey nedir?
Ve sen bu hik\u00e2yenin neresinde duruyorsun?
Ge\u00e7mi\u015fe bakan ki\u015fi misin?
Ya\u015fananlar\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131yan ki\u015fi misin?
Yoksa ya\u015fananlardan yeni bir ya\u015fam yaratan ki\u015fi mi?
Bir an dur ve sor kendine:
Ger\u00e7ekten hangi hik\u00e2yenin yarat\u0131c\u0131s\u0131s\u0131n?
Ve daha da \u00f6nemlisi\u2026
Bug\u00fcn hangi hik\u00e2yeyi yaratmay\u0131 se\u00e7iyorsun?
Ge\u00e7mi\u015fe d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir \u00e7ocuk g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum.
Belki sekiz ya\u015f\u0131nda\u2026
Bah\u00e7eli bir evde ya\u015fayan\u2026
Annesiyle birlikte bah\u00e7eden toplad\u0131\u011f\u0131 domatesleri, fasulyeleri sofraya ta\u015f\u0131yan\u2026
Sade ama sevgiyle \u00f6r\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f an\u0131lar\u0131n i\u00e7inde b\u00fcy\u00fcyen bir \u00e7ocuk.
Ama ayn\u0131 zamanda korkunun da tan\u0131\u011f\u0131 olan bir \u00e7ocuk\u2026
Babas\u0131 eve geldi\u011finde de\u011fi\u015fen bir atmosfer\u2026
Y\u0131lanlar g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc s\u00f6yleyerek e\u015fyalar\u0131 da\u011f\u0131tan, yataklar\u0131 deviren, evi yakmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan bir adam\u2026
Ve b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131n ortas\u0131nda ne yapaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilemeyen k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir k\u0131z \u00e7ocu\u011fu\u2026
Belki de bug\u00fcn h\u00e2l\u00e2 ayn\u0131 g\u00fcne d\u00f6n\u00fcp durmam\u0131n nedeni buydu.
\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc o g\u00fcn yaln\u0131zca bir olay ya\u015fanmad\u0131.
O g\u00fcn i\u00e7imde bir par\u00e7am dondu.
Bir par\u00e7am korkuda kald\u0131.
Bir par\u00e7am hayatta kalmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131.
Ama bug\u00fcn geriye bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda \u015funu g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum:
D\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fmesi gereken \u015fey ya\u015fananlar de\u011fildi.
D\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fmesi gereken, ya\u015fananlar\u0131n i\u00e7imde b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 anlamd\u0131.
Kabul edilmesi gereken \u015fey korku de\u011fildi.
O korkunun i\u00e7inde y\u0131llarca g\u00f6r\u00fclmeyi bekleyen k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bendim.
\u0130\u015fte geli\u015fim o g\u00fcn ba\u015flad\u0131.
Yarat\u0131m o g\u00fcn ba\u015flad\u0131.
Bu bir G\u00f6rkem hik\u00e2yesi\u2026
Bu bir sevgi hik\u00e2yesi\u2026
Bu, insan\u0131n kendi i\u00e7indeki kay\u0131p par\u00e7alar\u0131 yeniden bulma yolculu\u011fu.
Ve bug\u00fcn o k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck \u00e7ocu\u011fa bak\u0131yorum.
Ve ona diyorum ki:
“Te\u015fekk\u00fcr ederim.”
Buraya kadar geldi\u011fin i\u00e7in\u2026
Dayand\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7in\u2026
Vazge\u00e7medi\u011fin i\u00e7in\u2026
Seni g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum.
Seni kabul ediyorum.
\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc sen art\u0131k cebinde uyku ila\u00e7lar\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131yan, olanlar\u0131 durdurmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan o k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u0131z \u00e7ocu\u011fu de\u011filsin.
Sen art\u0131k fark eden ki\u015fisin.
D\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcren ki\u015fisin.
Se\u00e7en ki\u015fisin.
\u015eimdi kendine son bir soru sor:
Ge\u00e7mi\u015fte kimdin de\u011fil\u2026
Bug\u00fcn kimsin?
Ve cevab\u0131n\u0131 kalbin versin\u2026 \ud83e\udd0d\u2728<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Neden hep ayn\u0131 g\u00fcne, ayn\u0131 ana, ayn\u0131 hik\u00e2yeye tak\u0131l\u0131 kald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hat\u0131rlam\u0131yor olabilirsin\u2026\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcnde duran \u015fey yaln\u0131zca bir an\u0131 de\u011fil, tamamlanmay\u0131 bekleyen bir hik\u00e2yedir.Peki d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm hik\u00e2yesi dedi\u011fimiz \u015fey nedir?Ve sen bu hik\u00e2yenin neresinde duruyorsun?Ge\u00e7mi\u015fe bakan ki\u015fi misin?Ya\u015fananlar\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131yan ki\u015fi misin?Yoksa ya\u015fananlardan yeni bir ya\u015fam yaratan ki\u015fi mi?Bir an dur ve sor kendine:Ger\u00e7ekten hangi hik\u00e2yenin yarat\u0131c\u0131s\u0131s\u0131n?Ve 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